Please enjoy this video presentation of my own personal experience with Ayahuascha. This recording is taken from my summit recently held in May 2023. part Two is also available underneath. 

Dear 10 year old Charlie, I see you; I hear you, I know you… I would love to wrap my arms around you and give you a big squeeze, one of those hugs that almost hurts but feels so good.   I’ve wanted to let you know for a long time now that you are loved and everything really will be ok, even if right now it seems a bit scary. You aren’t a baby anymore, you are a grown-up girl, well at least you feel like it every time you announce how old you are to the world. But now that I look at you, I see how young and innocent you still are and how brave you have been already for such a little human. I want you to know that I am so very proud of you and this letter is written with an open heart with so much love for who you’ve become. You’re missing your dad right now and feeling so alone without your big brothers around. It’s just you and mum and the new dad, right?. It’s not the family you grew up with and not the family you wanted. Let’s go back to when you were just five years old… You were...

By the time I turned 50 I knew I could honestly say I didn’t want anything to do with LOVE. My heart had been broken enough times that it didn’t feel like it was possible to ever put it back together and if I was being honest with myself, I just couldn’t be bothered. The fear of it being broken again by even the smallest of loss was too frightening and overwhelming to imagine. The possibility of unleashing all the pain I had let fester for all of those years was too great a void to fill in. So, I did the next best thing most people do when trying to avoid pain, stayed numb and kept a controlled distance from anything that resembled love, romance, or affection. I remember the first time my heart broke as though it was yesterday. 5 years old and my mum told me that my best friend in the whole world, Sebastian, was found floating down the creek across the road, someone had poisoned him. Sebastian was my black Labrador who never left my side from the time I was born. Mum still has the...

Lessons from a baby lamb this week! Her name is Tres (three) she was the third little lamb born to a very tired sheep mumma (ewe) who said two is enough I'm not feeding three! And so the story began that Tres was abandoned by her mumma. This sweet little baby girl has taught me so much this week that she is definitley worthy of 2 bottles of milk three times a day. Let me tell you why! I was asked to do this emergency petsit because of my farm experience and the original petsitter cancelled on short notice. They said the words 'baby lamb' and I was an instant yes! The timing for me was not ideal (or so I thought), I am in full swing creating a project (soon to be released) and my calendar is full but to be honest I had been feeling really meh and VERY disconnected. In other words my battery was empty. I had no one to blame but myself, I had forfeited my nature time for work time and although I thought I had taught myself this lesson before, it seems I needed to go around again. The...

Way back in 2014, the year before my second divorce was finalised and the deconstruction of my life as I knew it, I went to visit a psychic out of pure desperation for a message of hope. The session was only 30 mins and she only had one message for me. I remember it vividly, she was sitting across from me shuffling through her cards, flipping them over and asking me random questions. She paused for a moment and started 'hmming' to herself, tapping her finger to her top lip. She looked at me with a thoughtful stare and then looked back down at her cards. After a few more long moments she shook her head slowly as she shrugged her shoulders and looked straight at me. "All I see is suitcases!" I immediatley smiled a half grin thinking to myself, I'm off travelling the world on some adventurous expedition. She knew straight away what I was thinking (of course she did) and squashed that grin with a quick reply "it's not holiday travel, this is like you are literally living out of...